Afraid of chocolate cookies – one of the weirdest phobias

So far, I’ve only been posting about OCD, but unfortunately I do not only have OCD, but I also have a couple of pretty weird phobias – which I guess have absolutely no connection to my OCD.
One of them may sound funny to most of you: I’m terribly afraid of chocolate chip cookies.

Yes, that’s true. I’m not joking…I know it sounds ridiculous but it’s unfortunately true. Just to show you an example of what kind of chocolate cookies I’m afraid of, I have also attached an image – and yes, it’s terribly scary for me to look at it.

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Obviously, this phobia is not making my life much harder, but it’s still pretty inconvenient especially that you can not really tell it to anyone as most of the people would simply make fun of you or laugh at you – or simply think that you’re just joking. (And I guess many of the readers will also think that I’m not being serious.)

Looking at chocolate cookies can literary scare me to death. It all started when I was a kid and I’d just cry if someone gave me chocolate cookies. Then, this whole thing continued in my teenage years, when my cousin and my friends would bring me some chocolate cookies to make me run away – which was a totally cruel thing.

And yes, nowaday it’s getting slightly better cause for example I could still look for the picture above and attach it to my post but I still avoid looking at it and also at McDonalds, I’ll always try not to look at chocolate cookies (I could actually never understood why they even sell chocolate cookies – it’s just scary). But then at least, I’m not running away from chocolate cookies anymore, so that’s already a huge step.

I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to overcome this fear because it’s not something that has a huge impact in my life, so I prefer simply avoiding it –  however, writing a post about it seemed to be a good idea to me as I’ve tried to google if anyone had the same fear but I haven’t found anything similar, so I just really want to know if I’m the only one who’s scared by chocolate cookies of if there are any more people with the same fear.

So, please feel free to comment if you have the same phobia! – and as you may have seen in some of my previous posts, I sometimes laugh at myself so I’ll not be offended if any of you makes fun of my phobia – even though it’s really not a joke.

OCD – Fight the Boggart!

Hi All,

Hope everyone had / is having a great day. Today I decided to write about something more positive – one can not just write about one’s fears all the time.
So, I’d like share something that works for me while fighting OCD, but I think many of you may have even guessed the whole story from the title.
Yes, that’s the boggart from Harry Potter books – What do I exactly mean by that?
I guess most of the people from my generation know the story of Harry Potter and may be familiar with the creature called “boggart”, which is a kind of monster that takes on the form of your worst fear. For me personally, OCD feels just like this: a kind of monster that is suddenly attacking me and is taking on the form of my “most recent worst fear”.
So, what is the perfect solution? Try to laugh at it – just the way Harry Potter’s friends did. This may not work in all cases as sometimes OCD can really drive you crazy and there are moments when one feels that there is simply no way out – when you feel the urge to clean your room several times a day or when you are afraid of non-intentionally commit  a crime/suicide, you will not be able to laugh at yourself, but when you feel calmer, it does help if you just think about your fears and try to “make them funny”. – At least it works as laughing at something will make that thing much less scary.
So, just do not give up and keep fighting that boggart! 🙂

Moving to another country with OCD…

Hi All,

I am sorry for disappearing for so long, however, I have been busy with a lot of things – yes, as the title says, I have moved to another country. As everything else in this world, moving is also a really challenging thing when you have OCD.
I think many of you may have experienced the things that I did. What if the company decides to revoke the job offer at the very last moment? Obviously, this was one of my biggest fears. Of course, this fear had been almost totally irrealistic, but try to explain this to someone who has OCD. I spent a lot of sleepless nights constantly worrying about the possibility of a revoked job offer.
So, yes, that was one of the main reason I have not posted anything on here for so long – I was afraid that if I wrote it down it would somehow become real. And yes, of course OCD would never stop at this point – signing the contract did not make things much easier as after signing it, a new fear arised: what if I get sick and will not be able to work?
All this may sound ridiculous to those without OCD, but I am pretty sure that most of the people who are dealing with the same problem can understand it perfectly.
Furthermore, let’s not mention about finding a flat: the constant fear that I would not find one and would have to give up on moving and getting a job in a different country just because of the fact that I am unable to find a flat.
However, overall, the moving itself turned out to be great and I am pretty satisfied with my life at the moment. A change is always a good thing – especially when you have OCD – a whole new city to explore and a lot of new things to learn. And let’s not forget about the new fears that one can have in a new country….as you may have noticed I am a type of person who likes making fun of his own situation so in the rare moments when I do not have OCD, I almost laugh when I imagine what kind of weird new fears I will developp while staying here. 🙂

Daily Fear

As I’ve already mentioned in my previous posts, I’d spent most of my days with fear and today was no exception.
I’m sure that many of you guys (who have OCD) were/ or are afraid of chocking.So that’s exactly what happened to me today. As usually, I was having my lunchbreak at work – so of course for an average person it would not seem to be something really dangerous, but not for me, as myself, I see danger everywhere, I suddenly started to question myself: what If I am allergic to this pizza? Obviously, I’m not allergic to any of the ingredients, but then, my brain would not stop asking me the typical OCD question: but what if?
So, this “what if” went a little bit further, until the point where I could actually feel that I could choke and die at any moment. And of course, in the meantime I had to pretend that everything was alright as one can not afford oneself talking about OCD in the middle of the office.
Now that the whole OCD attack is over, I can even laugh at myself – and that’s the only good thing about this whole terror. When it’s over, I can make fun of myself and see how irrational I was, but then, obviously, at the moment when I have these thoughts, everything looks really dark.
So that’s pretty much it for today. Just another typical day with OCD – as a final thought, let’s be a bit positive – at least this is something that always remains constant in our ever-changing world.
Please do not hesitate to share any comments about your own OCD story – looking forward to hearing from you guys! 🙂